[Headshake.] No, it's more complicated than that.

I don't regret it, but...it was... [How do you explain something that was both the best thing in the world and the worst? How do you describe someone for whom attempted murder became a show of affection? It's a mess of contradictions and to most people it wouldn't make any sense at all, and that would just be the reality of Class E going forward.]

He was proud.