Even if I become a teacher.... I don't know that I can stop being an assassin. Not anymore.
[Not after this place. Nagisa has seen multiple violent deaths now, and while he's not the type to be so deeply affected he carries them with him everywhere...it changes a person. Hardens a person. He feels like walls are rising, blocking his view of the sky.
On the mountain, killing and taking a life weren't the same thing until the very end. Not until Shiro and the Reaper threw their humanity away, along with Class E's innocence.]
It's strange, isn't it? A whole year of training, of killing and being threatened, but it's a few weeks away that change everything.
[He knows this isn't what sensei wanted. He can see it. His face would be black as pitch, tentacles reaching for the throat of whoever is responsible. He'd be ready to protect Nagisa, whisk him away to safety at twenty times the speed of sound.
He clings to the both of them. He knows he's the youngest, smallest, weakest - and that's part of why he's fought to keep it together. One less thing for his family to worry about. Especially with how bad the both of them were taking things....they needed someone to lean on. It feels like its own kind of failure to need them like this now, to have not held out for them until the end.]
Wherever you two go - I'll be right there with you too. Alright? [Even if not physically. They have his support, always.] I... I'll support you as best I can, so 'jump as many times as you like'.
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[Not after this place. Nagisa has seen multiple violent deaths now, and while he's not the type to be so deeply affected he carries them with him everywhere...it changes a person. Hardens a person. He feels like walls are rising, blocking his view of the sky.
On the mountain, killing and taking a life weren't the same thing until the very end. Not until Shiro and the Reaper threw their humanity away, along with Class E's innocence.]
It's strange, isn't it? A whole year of training, of killing and being threatened, but it's a few weeks away that change everything.
[He knows this isn't what sensei wanted. He can see it. His face would be black as pitch, tentacles reaching for the throat of whoever is responsible. He'd be ready to protect Nagisa, whisk him away to safety at twenty times the speed of sound.
He clings to the both of them. He knows he's the youngest, smallest, weakest - and that's part of why he's fought to keep it together. One less thing for his family to worry about. Especially with how bad the both of them were taking things....they needed someone to lean on. It feels like its own kind of failure to need them like this now, to have not held out for them until the end.]
Wherever you two go - I'll be right there with you too. Alright? [Even if not physically. They have his support, always.] I... I'll support you as best I can, so 'jump as many times as you like'.