It appears my hopes for Cheol to leave has been...crushed. Forever. He proposed. I was so angry that I blew up my current experiment. Now, though, I feel so foolish. I was acting like a child. A human child. I should look at the important things instead, right? My control over the Red Armies have started to grow. My mechas help to enforce my influence. A few kingdoms have capitulated without a single shot being fired, proclaiming me their Empress.
But...he proposed. And she accepted. I really don’t understand. She could do way better than him. And they plan to have children? This is ridiculous.
19-6-48xx
It’s happened. They’re - ugh - married. However. I couldn’t help but notice how happy she was today. In fact, I don’t think I’ve ever seen her this happy. The way she sounded, the way she looked in the mirror as she prepared...even when she was getting married. She seemed almost to be like in a dream. It was infectious. Even I found myself dancing with the music at the reception.
I wonder, is this something she wanted this entire time? She definitely seems, even in just this one day, so different. I can’t get it out of my head. Is it even possible someone can be so happy even when they make such an illogical choice? I wonder if that’s what love is.
That’s not something I can afford myself. I am not a creature who should engage in love. I shouldn’t be allowed to love. Like Aunt Marie likes to point out, I’m a monster. My purpose is to destroy, and the person I must destroy is the bride. Still, I never expected her to marry anyone (especially not THAT man) and yet here we are. This is something new that I must take into consideration. I don’t know what to expect.
What will happen now?
4-10-50xx
I have been informed by my Red Army scouts that an anomaly has appeared in one of the space sectors near the Neutral Zone, and with the potential to come near my fortress. Not near enough to cause damage to us, but the scouts were alarmed at its presence, claiming nothing like it had ever been seen before in the universe. While I am aware that memories in this place can fade and be twisted because of the time dilation - I’m seen as a goddess, ageless, for example - I can’t just dismiss their concerns out of hand.
They also claim that the White King is aware of this new anomaly, as is that Neutral Zone group of militia misfits that now call themselves the Order. Now they have become religious in full, and have taken to praying for the legendary “Beyonder” to stop the anomaly. The warrior who, centuries before, had saved the universe from destruction. So that’s what they’re calling Cheol in those parts now. How ridiculous. He’s hardly anything to write home about.
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It appears my hopes for Cheol to leave has been...crushed. Forever. He proposed. I was so angry that I blew up my current experiment. Now, though, I feel so foolish. I was acting like a child. A human child. I should look at the important things instead, right? My control over the Red Armies have started to grow. My mechas help to enforce my influence. A few kingdoms have capitulated without a single shot being fired, proclaiming me their Empress.
But...he proposed. And she accepted. I really don’t understand. She could do way better than him. And they plan to have children? This is ridiculous.
19-6-48xx
It’s happened. They’re - ugh - married. However. I couldn’t help but notice how happy she was today. In fact, I don’t think I’ve ever seen her this happy. The way she sounded, the way she looked in the mirror as she prepared...even when she was getting married. She seemed almost to be like in a dream. It was infectious. Even I found myself dancing with the music at the reception.
I wonder, is this something she wanted this entire time? She definitely seems, even in just this one day, so different. I can’t get it out of my head. Is it even possible someone can be so happy even when they make such an illogical choice? I wonder if that’s what love is.
That’s not something I can afford myself. I am not a creature who should engage in love. I shouldn’t be allowed to love. Like Aunt Marie likes to point out, I’m a monster. My purpose is to destroy, and the person I must destroy is the bride. Still, I never expected her to marry anyone (especially not THAT man) and yet here we are. This is something new that I must take into consideration. I don’t know what to expect.
What will happen now?
4-10-50xx
I have been informed by my Red Army scouts that an anomaly has appeared in one of the space sectors near the Neutral Zone, and with the potential to come near my fortress. Not near enough to cause damage to us, but the scouts were alarmed at its presence, claiming nothing like it had ever been seen before in the universe. While I am aware that memories in this place can fade and be twisted because of the time dilation - I’m seen as a goddess, ageless, for example - I can’t just dismiss their concerns out of hand.
They also claim that the White King is aware of this new anomaly, as is that Neutral Zone group of militia misfits that now call themselves the Order. Now they have become religious in full, and have taken to praying for the legendary “Beyonder” to stop the anomaly. The warrior who, centuries before, had saved the universe from destruction. So that’s what they’re calling Cheol in those parts now. How ridiculous. He’s hardly anything to write home about.