losergod: (Charles13)
"C". ([personal profile] losergod) wrote in [community profile] 15strangers 2018-08-17 06:49 pm (UTC)

cw for mention of child death and suicide

[ He just breathes. It helps. Trying to sort this all out is... confusing. ]

I... had a sister. Well, almost. My father... decided she shouldn't live. But it took a toll on my mother. She never... got over it. They had me, but I wasn't what she wanted. She wanted my sister, Scarlett Eyler. ... This is a long story...

[ He sighs. ]

Mother never really saw me. She was... delusional. She'd only see my sister. "Be a good girl", she'd always tell me. I... just did my best to take care of her. I was studying to become a doctor to help her more.

... You're probably wondering what this has to do with Charlotte Wiltshire, but I assure you the answer is "a lot". The one that I still remembered while I was here, the one I gave the yellow ribbon to... was the Scarlett Eyler of my world. My ideal sister. She had been reborn, as her own person there. But she committed a sin--she fought another copy of a Charlotte Wiltshire, this one defective, her name was V19, and killed her. She was then forced to take on a new vessel. One of the many Charlotte Wiltshires produced by the house. Her mind couldn't... handle being Charlotte Wiltshire. Eventually, it crumbled and that was all she became. A clumsy, naive girl, but a sweet one. I was... observing her because I knew who she was.

... I was... I was sick. I used to hallucinate Scarlett Eyler. She would hurt me. Make me hurt myself. She's--she's the reason I died. Well, part of it. So I wanted to hurt her. When I saw this new version of her, I thought... I could get back at her. But... every time I suffered even a little in her world, she picked me up. She helped me.

... And now... her soul data is... trapped in a television set. Preserved the only way I could think to preserve it. That is the first Charlotte Wiltshire I've talked about here. I... wish I knew how to help her.

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