[She doesn't seek. But she does want to learn.

Charlotte wants to learn how to make eternal life a punishment. She wants the Conductor to witness the death of what's left of her world, and remain in the ruin, alone. Forever, without the gift of oblivion. She wants her gaoler to suffer exactly as she is now convinced will be her own fate, and she wants to know how it can be by her hand, though she doesn't know where to begin to look for instructions.

That isn't a safe yearning to have in this particular corner of hell, is it?]