I...don’t know. It’s hard, to cope with trauma. I can understand that well enough. I’ve been through enough to know how hard it is, from my normal life to what happened on the train. Getting over it is probably one of the hardest parts, if not the hardest part.

But the worst part, I think? Getting over it alone. For the longest time, I tried dealing with things by myself, and while I was able to deal with things, I couldn’t stop it from spilling into my personal life. Trying to deal with it by myself for so long, that when it did come out...I nearly lost my wife. My best friend was about ready to beat me to death. I nearly lost everything.

Watching alone may not be the hardest part, but dealing with it alone? That might be the worst.