[ When it came down to it? Ritsu hit the nail on the head. At his core he wasn't nearly as cheerful as he tended to come off as, but to admit that to everyone just... it didn't feel right. ]

You're correct. I've just become used to handling everything as Captain of my Chasseur unit, keeping a smile up so their spirits won't be dampened.

[ Since fighting vampires could be a bit of a rough, harrowing job, then there was all this murder and yeah. Not built for this was right. ]

Even for one of faith like me, this much needless death is a lot. Being surrounded in it nearly feels like drowning and I have little power to stop it from happening.