No, but I have to be capable at something. I don't know what that something is anymore.

[He shakes his head slowly, staring at the floor between his feet.]

I was ready to retire from skating after I bombed two major competitions. All because my dog died and I fell apart. What kind of professional athlete does that? So what's that really make me if not some... wannabe who just knows the mechanics of skating but isn't a real professional?