When I first came, they asked if I could still feel her. I answered that I could, but that I could also feel that terrible sensation which caused us to fall apart. They seemed surprised that her soul could have such a reach, but once I explained to them my nature - her nature - they were a lot more interested in bringing me here. They told me that my ability, what was left of it, could be used for a different purpose, since my true purpose is now lost to me. I was reluctant, but on the other hand, I wanted to help these creatures. What’s happening here can possibly affect my universe, too. Though...for now, it seems handled, but I guess we’ll see.
There’s not much of a difference between what afflicts my world, and what’s been spreading from theirs. Negative emotions of the soul gaining its own will and energy, becoming a force of destruction without the population knowing...it can originate from a single person, or multiple people. Depending on the person and their potential, this can strengthen the power of the monsters that result. There is a way to harness this power for good, as my universe demonstrated, but not every universe is equipped to have that happen. Not yet.
I can see why they asked me to help. And I...wasn’t really being used anyways. Not like I was supposed to be. So I agreed.
I can still feel her, but it’s so much more faint. My understanding of humanity without her is wanting, so sometimes, when we seek out and bring in the aliens for training (it’s what they call our charges, even though most are human), they aren’t always what is expected. Some are very cruel. And when those are brought in, sometimes, I wonder what she saw in them when she made the decision to do what she did.
Especially when it comes to the Boss...but...I can’t bring myself to really say or do anything so far. It’s against the rules for me to contradict the Composer openly, as it could jeopardize the integrity of the Game. But I worry there’s more to my reluctance. As I lack the humanity that was once the core my very being, could it be that I’ve become more detached from the suffering that this Game the Boss has created than I thought...that I am slowly losing that hope that created me? Will I eventually feel nothing, will I fade away entirely?
Was that why she tore me apart like that? Did she really hate me so much
EVIDENCE
There’s not much of a difference between what afflicts my world, and what’s been spreading from theirs. Negative emotions of the soul gaining its own will and energy, becoming a force of destruction without the population knowing...it can originate from a single person, or multiple people. Depending on the person and their potential, this can strengthen the power of the monsters that result. There is a way to harness this power for good, as my universe demonstrated, but not every universe is equipped to have that happen. Not yet.
I can see why they asked me to help. And I...wasn’t really being used anyways. Not like I was supposed to be. So I agreed.
I can still feel her, but it’s so much more faint. My understanding of humanity without her is wanting, so sometimes, when we seek out and bring in the aliens for training (it’s what they call our charges, even though most are human), they aren’t always what is expected. Some are very cruel. And when those are brought in, sometimes, I wonder what she saw in them when she made the decision to do what she did.
Especially when it comes to the Boss...but...I can’t bring myself to really say or do anything so far. It’s against the rules for me to contradict the Composer openly, as it could jeopardize the integrity of the Game. But I worry there’s more to my reluctance. As I lack the humanity that was once the core my very being, could it be that I’ve become more detached from the suffering that this Game the Boss has created than I thought...that I am slowly losing that hope that created me? Will I eventually feel nothing, will I fade away entirely?
Was that why she tore me apart like that? Did she really hate me so muchI guess I don’t know.